Wednesday, May 18, 2005
Somewhere between sacred silence and sleep... disorder, disorder, disorder.
Man am I a wreck. Finals ended and my summer is off to a shotgun start. I have worked every day, some days working at both of my jobs, and in the "off" time I have been tending to family stuff or getting prepared for our trip to Colorado (starts the 19th... I'll be blogging from the road). I haven't been able to depressurize from school, nor have I been able to take care of some business I have had to take care of. My work schedule is in flux, and that adds to the sense of chaos. Both of my jobs seem to be scheduling a week or two ahead.
The one thing I have managed to do that is good was see my friend Yuri for probably the last time ever. She was a student here at IWCC, but is returning home to Japan in June. I will really miss her, and although I have only seen her 2 or 3 times this semester, I was quite attached to her. I will post a picture of us soon.
Another area of disorder is my weight. I am right back where I was last March. Last summer I started losing some weight and really feeling better about myself. My motivation, to be honest, was an increased amount of time that I was spending with P. and S. last year. They are both so beautiful, I felt like a toad around them. So, I didn't want to be the fat guy with two hot girls... LOL. But seriously, this is how I thought. Plus I was pretty active, playing a lot of tennis and golf... which I hope to get a chance to do again this summer.
That extended into my rush to get fit for Creighton once I found out I was admitted. I didn't want to be the old, fat guy in class. And I lost a lot of weight and was feeling very good. I had some muscle tone (well, for me), and was down to 210. Then finals hit, then the holidays, then a long lazy semester, and finals, and here we are, back at 230.
230 is about 15 pounds past the point where I disgust myself. I am pretty down about it and don't know what to do. My biggest two problems are that I just love to eat (it makes me happy), and I have no one to buddy up with for weight loss and exercise. Plus, having the schedule that I have make sit hard to get into a routine... but I am going to try my hardest once we are back from CO.
And, to close this downer of an entry, I have been having a bit of the post-semester blues. When I wake up in the morning, and don;t work the day shift that day, I feel pretty lost. I have lost my purpose. I don;t have class, no tests to study for, and no hope for the socializing that I get from school. Its like I woke up in a new place, minus all of my new friends and responsibilities. It was hard enough to adjust to this after I left NCC, and now I feel the same old blues already from CU, and it is only summer break! :(
Well, I am sure things will turn around once I get some order in place. Be on the lookout for some road blogging in the next week, maybe some great pix from Colorado, which is home in my heart.
Horns up!
The one thing I have managed to do that is good was see my friend Yuri for probably the last time ever. She was a student here at IWCC, but is returning home to Japan in June. I will really miss her, and although I have only seen her 2 or 3 times this semester, I was quite attached to her. I will post a picture of us soon.
Another area of disorder is my weight. I am right back where I was last March. Last summer I started losing some weight and really feeling better about myself. My motivation, to be honest, was an increased amount of time that I was spending with P. and S. last year. They are both so beautiful, I felt like a toad around them. So, I didn't want to be the fat guy with two hot girls... LOL. But seriously, this is how I thought. Plus I was pretty active, playing a lot of tennis and golf... which I hope to get a chance to do again this summer.
That extended into my rush to get fit for Creighton once I found out I was admitted. I didn't want to be the old, fat guy in class. And I lost a lot of weight and was feeling very good. I had some muscle tone (well, for me), and was down to 210. Then finals hit, then the holidays, then a long lazy semester, and finals, and here we are, back at 230.
230 is about 15 pounds past the point where I disgust myself. I am pretty down about it and don't know what to do. My biggest two problems are that I just love to eat (it makes me happy), and I have no one to buddy up with for weight loss and exercise. Plus, having the schedule that I have make sit hard to get into a routine... but I am going to try my hardest once we are back from CO.
And, to close this downer of an entry, I have been having a bit of the post-semester blues. When I wake up in the morning, and don;t work the day shift that day, I feel pretty lost. I have lost my purpose. I don;t have class, no tests to study for, and no hope for the socializing that I get from school. Its like I woke up in a new place, minus all of my new friends and responsibilities. It was hard enough to adjust to this after I left NCC, and now I feel the same old blues already from CU, and it is only summer break! :(
Well, I am sure things will turn around once I get some order in place. Be on the lookout for some road blogging in the next week, maybe some great pix from Colorado, which is home in my heart.
Horns up!
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